7 days

its officially exactly a week till now until i leave. got to start taking my malaria tabs now....it feels very surreal i got to say. but exciting at the same time!

...sky valley...

i had an interesting talk last night with a dude who means alot to me, who ive litreally grown up with, and shared moments of life with. good and bad. The guy is probably the most down to earh and kind hearted person im ever going to meet. lol thats a fact.

But its inevitable, good things and bad things never last forever. There was times i used to think that nothing could ever stop us from meeting and jamming and what not. But as life grooves its own way, things change, furthermore experiences changes. Its just that realisation of nothing will last forever, and its just kicking in-i dont mean it to be pessimistic what so ever.Embracing change is the way to open our minds to different things, but its human nature that we are naturally vulnerable to change.

Its going to be tough seeing a brother go for the next few years, i know we will still be in contact. But its just that freedom of us two jamming and the memories like cracking jokes!, getting high once in a while,Santana and pharoah sanders!,talking heart to heart about things, crazy sleep overs in which there was no sleep, the girl trouble talks, the park times, the leicester moment(lol),the anime reccomendations and of course the music exploration lol, doing things on the spur of the moment! (soil and pimp), our crazy epic psychadellic space talks..so random and intense that if anyone that doesnt know us heard us doing that talking, theyd probably think we just nuts..infact not probably they WILL think we wackos :P.

I guess this is the end of all those kinds of jokes and good times, accepting the change but not forgetting the past memories. In a way is its a good thing that this is happening. It'll allow us to get a new prespective on things and learn more by meeting different people.

But you know what man, i know that down the line things are going to change, even though we wont be able to jam as much, we always going to be in contact-this is the guy i cried on when i was feeling down to another level, the guy who took me in for a short while and helped get myself up from the ground,the guy who never would judge on first apperance. A brother closer than blood. I think its inevitable for me to never forget the guy!... ahh man i got me feelin so nostalgic! lool.....from russia..with looove!

holy words

now this is somthing that.. alot of you might think.. what the hell. random. Tarik can never talk about such a thing.. but the thing is though. its been a LOOONNNG time sinced i listened to the Quran. and yeah many people out there might just be thinking what the..But frankly i am me and you are you.

But it really is a beautiful thing. when you just listen. without the critisim. without the over analysing. its a language that is not understandable. but what is amazing about the arabic language. and the way the quran is recited. even though you dont understand. you listen. and you just feel (for me personally) at peace. Now im not saying im a religious person. But its that immense beauty of looking at a beautiful piece of art...But not understanding what the hell it is . Yet you still have respect for the way its portrayed, worked on and the effort and time it took to perfect it.

heart shaped box

its 2.03am, saturday morning having just been talking on msn to katerina. The hype about going on this life changing trip to Nepal (i cant waiiit). Funny enough, our conversations lingered into the abstract. Completely off topic, talking about her old music tastse and just general things in the past.

Then it struck me about nirvana, and how much i used to love that band. it was unreal. It brings back memories, litreally like a whole new landscape of all these forgotten memories buried in the music. Im telling you i havent listened to this band in years. since i was about 16, and im 19 now. the more i listen the more nostalgic i feel. almost as if i had travelled back in time and just relived all those youthful and inquisitive moments of my life. Then it hit that these are the roots and chains that got me into the music i listen to now. The depth of how much i respect music, all because of one snot nosed teenaged audienced band! But looking back in retrospect, you just see things in a completely different light. The power chord driven, kurt cobain wailing lyrics always reminds me of my roots in terms of music. and roots are always important in giving you a sense of where you have come from. no matter how far youve travelled. youve walked down a spesific path. and that path is unique to all of us...I have to say, my present view on nirvana is that i think they are bloody overated! But we have to start somewhere....

In my case i guess its special for me that, no matter how much im not into them. i'll always have this undying respect for them as a band. as nirvana was the beginning of it all for me. It would be foolish not to respect them in my case :P

feel the viiibbbbbes... legendary lonnie liston smith

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S6Sihz2TRyY&feature=related

....homebrew....

Today i woke up..i got a phone call from my boss saying take a day off. And man. does it feel werid, when your so used to the routine of a working man. the moment that cycle is broken you feel really lost, almost as if you need! to do somthing. even if its nothing. So i just cleaned the whole of the upstairs downstairs vaccumed the floor washed the dishes.

It makes you think, that when there is nothing to do there always is somthing that NEEDS doing. But you just cannot be asked to do it. Ive been out alot this past week. seeing the soil and pimp sessions and the mars volta. witnessing the magic of omar alfredo rodriguez lopez, i just finished watching loads of at the drive in interviews with omar and mars volta interviews with omar. Its just inspirational from where he has come from and the change in attitude towards his approach to music. the fact that Omar is probably in his 40s because he was in 30s in at the drive in. Just gives me confidence that there is still time in pursuing what i want to do. lol im only 19 and i feel like if i dont do anything now nothing will ever happen. I keep forgetting that there is still time..loads of it infact. and that i am doing things that will help in the future of my progression. Ive prefromed with a reggae band recently(~i dont know if i'm in this band or not lol they never ring only on the last minute when there is a gig no notice man!)...and a jazz band when i was 17.. its fair to say that i have experience playing live. Its just that urge of wanting to do EVERYTHING now!! like a little spoilt brat kid who demands everything he wants. .But hey thats just the way i be feeeelun for a loong time. Just have to keep reminding myself that there IS STILL TIME TARIK DAMIT KHAN!!

Music

Ornette coleman said music is the grammar of sounds. when pieced together, it creates and reflect the expressions of the heart. through vast Genres of music. Music is love, and Love consists of two elements both positive and negative. These two opposing elements creates balance. The emotive construction of music creates balance. This balance is beauty. this beauty is Life..

set for nepal

time is slowly creeping towards the day. maybe i have too high expectations, the excitement cant be exaplained, its going to be one of those moments in life. and what a perfect way to start a new blog.. its the first blog im posting. its a whole new thing to me :P