Never. Ending. Peace. And. Love.

..its been a long time since i have blogged on this. its something that is of a rare opportunity to actually get on this without power cuts, internet failing and just general speed of the net here.
Its been probably about 3 weeks since ive written in this blog and so much has happened.

the last few weeks have been hard. the work has increased to picking up boulders and putting them in wheel barrows to the site. Its amazing how we don't actually have permission to get the rocks off right at the work site. This is due to the stubbornness of the village people. What amazes me is that when i told someone at work before i came on platform2. That im doing volunteering work. The first thing he said to me was "why help people if they cant help themselves". At the time i thought that this was just ignorance whilst containing some element of truth. The fact that we work hard from 9 till 4 and people still dont understand or want to acknowledge the work we are doing. To them they think that we have cursed the village with our values and morals, this is true to a certain extent on all the volunteers parts, as we are stepping into a realm of which we are not familiar with. Some volunteers think that everyone is ungrateful. Some have even forgotten why they are here and just want to go get burgers and yam on diarymilk's all day in kathmandu. lol its tough.

We celebrated a festival which is a womens festival, they send praises to there husband to give them a healthy life. This was interesting and really opened my mind to the way nepali people live. Its amazing how so little each person in this village has. yet still has hapiness. There souls have peace within them and you can clearly see this when you meet a villager lol. On this day i went to the festival but left early to go up to the mountains near my house, one of my host brothers is really spiritual so he took me up there, i reaally wanted to go and did it! I met this monk there and he sat with me for a good half an hour talking about life. Whilst having such an amazing view of the whole of the village lol. He spoke limited english about wisdom and love also on the theory of love and peace. It is the most amazing conversation ive ever had in my life! will never forget that day! the only probelm was my camera battery ran out!!!!!!!!. we exchanged our beliefs and values to one another. he spoke of buddha and one qoute that will always stick with me is this one (which i had to find on the net :P) it goes like this..

The thought manifests as the word;
The word manifests as the deed;
The deed develops into habit;
And Habit hardens into character;
So watch the thought and its way with care,
And let it spring from love
Born out of concern for all beings...
As the shadow follows the body,
As we think, so we become." —Buddha

its so simple yet it is so complex in many ways. the ways in which we dont recognise our thoughts. we dont actually think about the simplest of things. we jump straight into the deep end without realising where we have started. Next thing you know this has defined our character.

Other than these two huge events and the hardwork which we came here for. Everything is really slow paced. and you always seem to learn somthing everyday if you choose to. Somtimes you think today was full of nothing. lol but when i lay in bed, which is probably why i cant sleep. I just think of everything that has happened. and analyse things. I think that my perceptions have changed on how i see things because of Nepal. which is a beautiful thing lol. but yeah.

Ive decided not to fast. because when i tried i got a serious fever. you have to eat somthing out here. and in a way what we collectivly have come to do is a sadaq initself.. I'll try and blog whenever i have the chance too. right now it seems that i can do this every few weeks. so thats sweeeet!